I am a rock

My father, who is above all else my hero and best buddy, used to tell me that the Simon & Garfunkel song I am a Rock always reminded him of me. Mostly because I, like him, was immensely good at supressing emotion and convincing myself that I felt nothing nor did I want to...

I always knew the song but I finally took the time to really read the lyrics closely the other day. If it weren't so completely true, I would actually be sad that I was viewed this way...

A winter's day
In a deep and dark December;
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I've built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

Don't talk of love,
But I've heard the words before;
It's sleeping in my memory.
I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I have my books
And my poetry to protect me;
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.